Blockers

I had to go back to work today for a PD (Professional Development) which in short is how we teachers learn new stuff.  Some of them can be a complete and utter waste of time.  I have been to PLENTY of those.  Here in the ACT, teachers have to do their PD in stand down (wanky term for holidays).  In NSW, they have pupil free days, which are usually the first day back after holidays.  But here in the 'berra, as part of our EBA, ours are during 'stand down'.  I remember once getting in big trouble for calling holidays 'holidays'. 

"No Deborah (this bitch always called me Deborah, I fucking hated her)  It's called stand down."

fuck her.  It's holidays.  STFU.

Anyhoo, we had one of those today.  It was REALLY good.  REALLY useful for what we as a school can do moving forward.  Everyone is on board and excited about this way of doing things.

Except one.

There is always one.  Always one who disagrees with everything, everyone and every idea.  Just because they can. 

This woman, who is as sour as spoilt milk and has a permanent cats bum face.  She is the same age as me but looks 20 years older.  Here's an example of her foolery, and I am paraphrasing because if I were to go word for word, I would be here a week.

This PD was about developing a school process that everyone can follow so we are all on the same page about what we as a staff see teaching and learning.  Part of this ongoing PD is a section where the PARENT COMMUNITY (so not teachers, unless they want to) are going to be contributing to the plan of the school.  It is to be held after school (which was clearly marked on the sheet we were reading, as well as it being clearly marked as being FOR THE COMMUNITY)  This one puts up her hand.  She also speaks with a put on lisp when she is particularly being a douche nugget.

"well, I already see a problem, me, being a single parent, can see an issue with me having to be here after school"

Blocker.  Instantly.  before even finding out what was entailed AND IGNORING WHAT WAS STATED ON THE SHEET!

Now, I could be completely factitious and outline this woman's personal issues as well as her professional ones.  But I wont.  Needless to say, she is the most vapid, annoying, waste of space I have ever come across. 

argh.

I just had to get that off my chest. 

Right. Over that.

Inspired by the very awesome Retro Mummy, I am turning over a new leaf and giving you...

10 things you don't know about me!

(and considering none of you know me, then this is going to be new for everyone!  yay!  Let's play.

1.  I was born in Melbourne, but call Canberra home.  I could live in Melbourne again, but I'd want to live in the inner city!  And who can afford that? 
2.  My husband is 8 years younger than me.
3.  I am the worlds worst housewife.  ever.  full stop.  no contest.  move along
4.  I despise people who pretend to be someone they are not.  You aren't fooling anyone, get over yourself.
5.  I still don't think I know who I am, even at 38.
6.  If I could have my life over again, there are a MOUNTAIN of things I would do differently, but having said that, they are not regrets, but just lessons learned.
7.  I am what doctors call morbidly obese and I hate that... part of the lessons learned.  I would be more active in my youth and not sit on my arse as much.
8.  I want to go to Thailand for my 40th... which is only 2 years away!  When did that happen!?!
9.  I don't suffer fools gladly... in fact, not at all.  I find it hard to hide my disdain to people who are idiots.
10.  I have Bernard Fanning's phone number but I will never ever use it. 

Your turn!

ok, so that might have been a tad dramatic.

I am currently menstrual.  That might explain my current malaise.  I get very angry just before my period and then BAM, back to normal.  It's not to say these things are not issues, they are (and need to be addressed before the rot sets it) but they seem insurmountable at this time of the month.  Oh. and did I mention I turned 38 yesterday.

'nuff said.

so, in order to restore some faith in myself that its ok, I'm ok and the universe is ok, I am going to outline 5 things that make me happy.

1. ..................... ummm....... ahhhh.....

geeez, this is harder than I thought.  I fully can't think of one thing.

fuck it, I'll have a beer instead.

gotta get my mojo back

I am in a rut in a major way.  Not just with the whole blogging thing, that is blatantly obvious.  Just life in general.  I dead set determined it's because of the weather.  Who wants to do anything in this miserable cold weather.

I would much rather be somewhere like here...

But that aint gonna happen anytime soon. Not like I would want to sit in a bikini in a pool either.  But that's another story.

I'm also in a relationship rut.  I can feel the tension with hubby.  It is a physical presence at the moment and I don't know what to do to fix it.  I try to speak to him about it, he either gets sooky or belligerent.  So I just withdraw and don't engage, which makes the chasm even bigger.

*sigh*

I'm also well and truly over school holidays.  A stay at home mum I am not.  I love my kids with every fibre of my being, but I also like that other people are around to help me raise them while I work.  I don't want to go back to work in the mood I am in.  Emmy sooks all day (terrible 2's come early), Lucy chatters about nonsense and tries to be a second mum.  Please tell me I am not the only one who at times, as bad as it sounds, cannot stand the sight or sounds of their kids!!!!

What to do...  this rut is doing my head in.  I don't want to be this person.